Looking back.....

I'm thinking about my friends in college lately. I miss the days when we hung out together. When we went to eat together. I miss the days when we travel a lot to small cities and exciting places with our motorbikes. I miss spending time in beaches and mountain range with them. I miss the day when we skipped class...hahahaha.. skipping class. I hardly remember the last time i did that.
When i was in high school i could NOT skip class...not even once. My high school was a private one for girls only. I remember the principal was sooooooo mean..... She was and still and would always be a nun. I miss high school days too. We could not skip class because of those dedicated guards...hahahaha.. I love my high school. Although i could only flirt (did I?) with the male teachers, but i never regret it.
Now things change. Every body leaves eventually. Sometime i wish that things are the same as they used to be. Naaaa... that's not possible. But since i always believe that everything is possible except if you want to be God,..than i think it's possible that things can be the same as they used to be. Uhm... how can we do that? If i want to make things static, does it mean that i'm playing God? Uhm... it's not possible then. But it's possible with ashton kutcher in butterfly effect hahahahahaha...
I'm going home to my hometown this weekend, and i'm going to meet my old friends. I'm happpyyyyy................I'm going to spend my weekend with them. But not all of them i guess. I had and hopefully still have 12 close friends when i was in college. But like i said before, things change. Some of them have changed..and perhaps so do i. We're getting apart with reasons that i don't understand. Just like i would not understand the reason why Damian chose not to contact me anymore. I always hurt him with my words..but if only he knew me, he would know by now that i'm a sarcastic...lol... And perhaps that's my fault too..not giving him the chance to know me.
And so.. why didn't i let him know me? Sam, that's why. I want damian as a friend because my heart is occupied. I wished he understood how hard it was and is for me fighting for the most important thing in my life. It's hard.. and painful. Uhm...and why am i talking about damian again..?